Friday, December 30, 2011

Reflection

The past year has been one of immense change. With the end of 2011 comes a time of reflection of everything one has done this year. 2011 - I never imagined I'd see this year, that it was even possible. When I graduated high school I said to myself "I don't graduate college until 2010... that's never going to get here." Now here I am, and it's almost 2012. I think I've finally found a place for me, for now at least. In the beginning of 2011 I knew I wanted to do biological research and find vaccines for cancer and cure the world of sadness. Now, as 2012 rounds the corner, I know I no longer wish to do that. It sounds horrible to say "I no longer wish to cure the world of sadness," however it's not actually what I am saying. I just know that I do not want to spend my days in a laboratory, killing mice, failing experiments, and trying the same thing over again 100 times before I get it right. I just have to find a new way to bring happiness to the world. As spring came and went and summer entered my life (though in California, you can't really tell the difference), I went from being in a lab, to having no idea what I was going to do with my life. I didn't have a job, I had classes I knew I'd need to finish somehow, I had no prospects of a bright future. I went to the beach every day, but had no idea where I'd be living a month from then. The summer went by, and all of a sudden I was employed. I packed my bags, said farewell (for now) to California and the City of Angels, and moved on to another life adventure. Now I live in St. Croix, an island, paradise to most, finishing my classes online, loving my job, loving the people I've met, and loving my current life status. This past Christmas, I spent the whole time catching up with my family, close friends, and trying to explain how all of this happened, as it just happened so quickly. The past year absolutely flew by.

So what's the purpose of this entry? It is reflection. I made a lot of changes in my life this year. I met so many different people this year. I am still so young, but I am not getting any younger. I think I'd consider 2011 a successful year in my life. I didn't make any big changes in the world, but in my own little world, I changed so much, and changed for the good. I am starting to figure out where I belong, what I am supposed to be doing, and who I am supposed to be. My roommate and best friend just got engaged. Not only is it a very exciting time in her life (and mine because I am just so exited for them), it is such a reality hit. She's going to be married a year from now. We really are growing up. I guess it's about time I start figuring out what I'm doing with my life.

So here's to 2011. You were a good year, but I bid you adieu. I've had enough change for now, and I am ready to live in peace. I already know, 2012 will be successful, not because of change, but the lack thereof. Welcome to my subtle island life.